Party in the USA!

"Dear Syahira Zakaria,

Congratulations! You have been guaranteed a place by AFS USA for the Semester YES Program sponsored by the US Department of State Bureau of Educational and Cultural Affairs."

Just got the email like 5hours ago. OMFG! Haha.
Thank god.

Happy Birthday PennyQi!

On this special day, I dedicate this post to my one and only,

PENNY CHONG SHU QI

You're 17 now. You are no longer a cute little thang. You are now a lady! So, my sexy designer babe, go get your car keys because you have got to drive me around! Haha.

With LOVE.

I want you.

11.54pm

Sunday

19 September 2010

Carve it in my heart forever.

"I think I'm ready"

I'm yours.

You had me at "No!"

First you confuse me. Then you say you're sorry.
I asked for the same thing I have asked you all along.
And then, you tell me it's okay.

But is it enough?

You answered, "No...."

And that was all that I needed to know.

(DON'T!!)Forget it

At that time, I was happy. I was so excited That I just had to tell you about it...but you have forgotten that, right?...You have forgotten all that had made us happy together...

You love me. So what?

Let's just put all these behind us...just forget all this, okay? Forget that I love you or that you love me...

It's over. So over.

I know that I have hurt you,
But I do...I do love you.
And though you have hurt me,
You still say that you love me.

I odn't want to let you go. Please, don't let go. Not yet. Oh, god, please...it hurts so much.

It has gone WAAAYYYY past complicated.

We had a HUGE fight. My fault. His fault. We are all at faults. Well, guess what? It's over before it even started.

You broke my heart. Congratulations. The funny thing is, all I asked from you was not to lie. You had my heart. You did. Maybe I didn't trust you. But you gave me reason not to.

"It's simple. You want me. Or you don't. All or nothing."

Yet, you still didn't choose.
So...I choose.

Complicated? No, it's simple.

" S

o maybe it's complicated because I'm sick & tired of the Roller Coaster ride of one day it's "I love you & can't live without you," & the next day it's "F#@$ YOU I'm leaving" & the next day after that it's, "Please don't leave me I'll die without you."

Then I tell him " No way, you're not coming back in this time, take a hike, I'm sick of waiting for the other shoe to drop!" & I get back from him days of crying & begging & swearing it'll never happen again & his saying "I'll never ACTUALLY leave you," but he'll put me through hell for 2 or 3 days at a time during the times he semi-leaves calling me every name in the book, cutting me to ribbons with his words, assaulting my character, my beliefs, my choices in life. He'll blame me for every short coming he has & when I'm in tears in a pile on the floor & concede by saying "Ok! I'm done! Leave & never darken my door again!" he'll flip & beg me not to throw him out because he didn't REALLY mean it; & he swears yet again that he'll never do it again.

Well to quote DePeche Mode "Never again is what u swore the time before." So I'm damned if i do & damned if i don't. So I call that "complicated" & that's unfortunately a far far cry from "single" "

If it is complicated, don't kid yourself. You're single.

Keep me in your memory.

Friendship ends. Understand?

But I don't. Because it was fate...when we met. Something pulled me to the piano. And something pulled you to the piano too. It wasn't my playing. And it wasn't like you played. And everything else that follows, was history. So it can't end. Not this way.