Friday, April 22, 2011

I'm going back to preschool.

As you all may or may not know, I am now a teacher at Tenby's Kindergarten. So, the first day of work, I woke up super early because I was just too excited.

I arrived at about 7.30am and began my first task. Helping Miss Anne (Stephen Saw's mother) greet the kids and carry them and their bags (which are bigger than them) out of the cars.

Then, Mrs Puvanes sent me off to Mrs Ang's class. FS2B...I think. When I entered the class (The same class as my trial) Mrs Ang was like, "Sean's crying. Can you try to calm him down. I have to do some paperwork."

Sean, 3 going on 4, was a new student. He was crying for his mummy. He went all, "I want my mummy *insert tears*..."

So, after bringing tissue for Akhill, I went back to Sean.

Me: Sean, look at me.

Sean: *stops sobbing*

Me: Are you okay?

Sean: I'm fine...but I want my mummy.

Me: Don't you want to make friends?

Sean: Yes.

Me: *Drags Sean to Erina.* Erina, this is Sean. Come say 'Hi' to Sean.

Erina: *Waves to Sean*

Me: Sean, this is Erina. Say 'Hi, Erina.'

Sean: Hi Erina.

Me: *Brings Sean to Christopher.* Christopher, this is Sean. Say 'Hi'.

Christopher: *Nods*

Me: ???

Sean: Hi Christopher.

Me: Can Christopher and Erina play with Sean?

Sean: Sits down.

Erina and Christoper scoot closer to Sean.
In silence, they played together.

Me: ???
That was kind of cool.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

THAT shirt.

Don't you just HATE it when he wears THAT shirt(s)? The ones he wore during THOSE times? Which brings you back to THEN? Boo you. You suck...*No. I suck. Just saying.* Btw,imysmihlk.


Vroom, vroom, baby.

Toyota Vios TRD Sportivo.

That's gonna be my car. Yeah!

So this is what I figured out over the past few days:

1. Life gets better after awhile.

2. Some friends are worth a lifetime.

3. It's okay to move forward and not look back for awhile.

4. Some mistakes will haunt you to your death. So, it shouldn't stop you from living your life.

5. Forgiveness is something you earn. If you don't deserve it, you won't get it.

6. If I lie, then I would be exactly like you. Something I HATE.

7. "It's alright, just wait and see, your string of lights are still bright to me, oh, who you are is not where you've're still an innocent."

Friday, April 8, 2011

You're beautiful, every little piece, love.

I wake up with a jerk every time. It's the same. Always the same. But what haunts me isn't a dream. It's a memory. Beautiful. Smart. Rich. I always wondered why. I know I won't get an answer. But, in all honesty...I know it wasn't me. It was never me. So I'm OK.


Today, I got to go back to RPS with Adibah and Syud and Fatin. Then, I accidentally not on purpose met Mai at the pasar malam.

And now I'm chatting with Fatim (MRSM Taiping).

Yes. Things do get better.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Going back to kindergarten.

I can smile now. I know now that it wasn't just me. It was never just me. And sure, the stories look a lot like tragedies...but before the ending, there's an almost perfect beginning and middle.

People make mistakes. Even if you can't forgive. Even if you can never's the moments that counts. And maybe, in time, with small baby can learn. And then, you grow.

I love you, guys. Penny, Reshween, Mai, Adib and everyone else. I know that I've made my own downfall...but I hope...I really hope you'd be there as I struggle to get back up.

p/s. I got a job at Tenby's Kindergarten! So adorable!