Sunday, March 27, 2011

Is it too much to ask?

Yes. It is. I just wish it wasn't that easy for you. It was just so easy for you.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

There's a part of me you'll never know.

So...I guess that means everyone knows?

But there are some things they don't. No one does.

So they have heard your story...which changes so many times...but they never heard mine.

No one has. Because it hurts too much.

You see, what happened on the surface was just another story of stupidity...but underneath that layer of innocence are plans, resentment, envy, fights, disloyalty, discrimination, plotting, backstabbing, lies and mostly...acting.

But like Taylor Swift's song Haunted,

"You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and its all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And its comin' over you like its all a big mistake"

"Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you"

Get it?

Or maybe you'll understand Love The Way You Lie Part II,

"On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don’t know why I’m still surprise"

In other means...

"I told him to go to hell."
"That's what you said...but you meant..."
And the worst part was...
"Maybe it was meant to be..."
Honestly? I wish...

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

SPM results!


Haha. So there!
Maybe my life is not so horrid after all...

So I'm ecstatic! But at the same time...

...never mind. I should be extremely pleased with my results especially since I got 10A's!!! Some (mostly) don't even take 10 subjects. So there! Hah!

*sigh* I guess it is gonna be okay.

WOOT! WOOT! College life, here I come!

Hmmm...which brings forth the question...which college? Any ideas?

Happy Birthday Maisyarah Mazlan.

Back when we were wild!

Back when we were sweet and innocent.

Back when we were HOT!

Happy Brithday My Darling Mai!

I just want to say that I LOVE YOU! And that life is HARD. And we just have to face it. BUT lucky for us, we have each other!!! So, lean one me whenever you need me, although you're older, you'll always be my dah-ling! And now that you are OLD-er, *hehe* please, take care of yourself. And take care of me too! *haha* Just know that I'll always be there for you. Anytime, babe!

Lots of love, kisses and hugs,

Monday, March 14, 2011

Fashion with passion and free phone calls.

So SPM results are out soon. I'm like waiting and waiting...because I want to apply to so many things but I need that piece of paper...which I don't want to know the content.

Like, who isn't nervous about their results, right? I know I'm not dumb *although I have done stupid things* but who knows, right?

Ergh. This is sooo stress-making.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

"That's so brain-MISSING"

Extras, by Scott Westerfeld

It's the fourth book, continuing the UGLIES trilogy. Which raises a question right there. I thought it said trilogy???

But, having said that, I like the series. Especially SPECIALS. They sound cool.

Anyway, the fourth installment is about a whole new kind of world. A new generation, after the mind-rain. And a new lead character named Aya.

In her world, it's all about Face Ranks. Like reputation. The more famous you are, the more things you get. The whole world is like a freaking popularity contest.

And Aya is just like any low-life girl in the world who cares so freaking much about being famous. She lies to get into this group and then kicks a story about them and this World-Demolishing-Device-Thingy.

So the creators of this devices are like chasing her to like kidnap her or something.

That's when Tally-wa a.k.a. Tally Youngblood a.k.a. creator of the Mind-Rain a.k.a. Most Famous Person in The World come in with 2 other Specials who are also Cutters to save Aya's butt.

Tally used Aya to get kidnapped because she wanted to check those monkey-like people.

And the next thing you know, noone is trying to destroy the world. They're creating a whole new world in space.

Tally's famous. Aya became the 3rd most famous person. And the end.

Seriously, I hate Aya. She's so brain-missing. Which means she's like idiotic.

But the book is nice. It's a whole new world kind of thing with really advance technology. Which is so super KICK. Which means 'Cool.'

The best part is that the book is kinda light. It's not deep. Yet it's not bubble-headed either.

And it uses such weird terms. Brain-missing. Kick. Bubble-head.
There's even this guy who invented this brain-surge a.k.a. brain surgery called Radical Honesty. You like rewire yourself so that you can never ever lie. You will always tell the truth.

But it's kinda fun, right? You can say things like, "But my brain is wired that way!" And mean it. Like, literally. Haha.

Knowledge is power.

I'm like super bored now that I have landed back in Malaysia.

So I have been scrolling through some colleges and short courses, just for fun...
...That's a lie.

I need to think about useful things instead of having such thoughtless thoughts.

Oh. And if I apply somewhere else, I won't apply there....

It's almost impossible not to know. And to know? Oh my god. I wish...I pray...I hope...But I should not.

Can you UN-know something? Like have a brain wash or something.

This is one of those things, you know? When you know about something that you wish you didn't know. But the funny thing is that you wanted to know it so badly when you didn't....that is, until you know it. Then, you want to undo it.

Which is sooo terriby stupid. But, you can't deny that is is true. this particular case of mine...I didn't really want to know. But the more you find out, the more you want to know. And at the end of it all, you just wish that you didn't know anything because although that makes you seem stupid and least, you're safe from the knowledge. Because the power of the the power to hurt you. And if you didn't know, you wouldn't be hurt.

"No one gets hurt if no one knows."

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Wishes and wishes...

I should send a gift.

Things are getting better. I can see the bright side of things.
I'm tired and sleepy.

But I can never stop. Or else...

Because in the midst of this dark cold winter,
I long for the sun.
But the sun melts the snow,
And without snow,
I rather not the sun.